Lora talked to psychologists today, steffie, and then it was lovely. Apparently george is thirty. Im sad for the world. And Leahs character (Fraiser? What was his name?) still loves her. YAY. I wish I was as good as Lora for making people fall in love with me. I guess I could be if I was as.. forward.. as her.
Okay, possibly going to amys thing I hope I can because I need to live a little.
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So Yeah, I Do Like My Life...
I MISS BRIDGET! shes off filming spells so she can be my lover and thats why shes so cool. Rehersals almost done for lawrence, which means soon enough you will all get to see vicky and partially my creation. I am the note taker, as I like to call myself. Okay, so the ongoing quest for a boyfriend continues, Im going to meet haleys boyfriend on saturday hopefully, and then Im going to see my little sister. Tomorrow there is no rehersal and hopefully it will be nice and i can leave my house and perhaps go to billings bridge and get more booster juices with my friends dane and anna. I will then propose some form of cast partay and then stop being so square (in the sence that i am lame, like in equus how she says about adults being square) and i hope Ill get some shopping in becuase i am in DIRE need of new brasiers. Benfit one... I have bigger breasts now... Downside... I need to fork out money. Good thing i love shopping. Haley, you need more spare time so we can shop together because i love you no matter how big of a whore you are.
SERIOUSLY, someone said something bad about haley and i stood up for her.
Im pretty much the most awesome friend anyone could want as there best but of course TAKEN!
As a friend , not as.. MORE than a friend
DATE ME, I SAY!

Okay, to start off I have to say...
I MISS GRADE NINE SO MUCH.
Its hard t say how much Ive changed since then, like... everything is different. I know what sally was talking about know. How much i miss grade nine becuase my whole social structure is upsidedown.I want different things for different reasons. Secondly i miss being friends with haley and taina like we were last year. I know no one but dane will read this because no one else has live ournal and is my friend but its just another change. what i need is some confidence.
Oh yeah, i love you my grade 10 friends but its hard to change without looking back. Im just so angsty its hard t beleive sometimes. I dont want to grow up, is what i mean.

hey.
okay, I have a myspace and i think i liek that better but dane wanted me to use Live Journal again so im checking it. this is my first postyness in a long long time but who knows, maybe Ill love Live Journal like i used to... In the mean time...
www.myspace.com/allysafightsthefuture

So guess what.
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So guess what.. There came thronging upon my bed were leaving me, shuddering, taina of people to Usher. But, the GALLOWS! said I started from dreams of the last two days doing an exaggeration! In a rapid ghastly to the old game roller coaster tycoon salivates). We went utterly out; their flames. The curtains of unutterable fear to Usher. It was now the image of people to shake off- incumbent eternally upon my bed were in turn yelled at tainas house was the swings from dreams of people to end my bed were in the old lady. Then I, and bought food I was a rapid ghastly thing-- of unutterable fear to return. Who in turn yelled at once, we went crazy. The air is not behold this! In death; yet sternly beautiful night. Ima get chu. I, like a lot of torture which awaited me, maddy, or the other hand, to this, taina, save our backs in a deadly locution. Im proud of crime-- you shall not-- an erin one of death! It was funny so we held hands and of the horrors of any relative significance to repeat, above all is madness. Quoth the bus. with lauren trie to end my bed were in flames went utterly out MOON POWER TO THE RESCUE for this! You shall not behold this, a lime popsicle wich tasted like a tempestuous yet sternly beautiful night. Ive spent the front of death; but smile no power to anyone who isnt me.



REAL ENTRY
So guess what. Its summer. Ive spent the last two days doing nothing of any relative significance to anyone who isnt me, lauren, maddy, taina, or the old lady I ran into by accident. Who in turn yelled at me. Cranky old lady. Ima get chu. On the other hand, Ive been having lots of fun and today I feel like vomiting. But Im ok. Yesterday I was at tainas house with lauren and taina (of course). We went and bought food (I bought a lime popsicle wich tasted like condencsed juice...yummm) then we went to this park near her house and watched lauen on the swings from afar with a panting guy in a tube. Befor e left, we layed on our backs in a circle. It was kind of funny so we held hands and shouted out MOON POWER TO THE RESCUE (for no aparent reason) then ran back home to play simmmms. It got boring then lauren trie to save our sims. They went crazy. It was funny. I (L) SOCIAL BUNNY !!!!. then we ate chocolate. then we went home and I prentended I was a crack addict on the bus. I got into it. Scared a lot of people to the front of the bus. Im proud of myself. Then I developed an obsesion with the old game "roller coaster tycoon" (salivates). I did this this morning, so y'all know. .. it took... forever...but I LOVE it. Im doing an erin one next as a going away nerd present :)

Let me know what yall think :):)

Hi world!
Such few time in summer...am I wasting my time by not talking to haley. good gracious. Im watching the second half of spice world. Cest bon. Actually, those chicks cannot act. GOSH. I must mail haley. That bitch still hasnt sent me my pictures >: S.
(L)ALLYSA

So guess what. Its summer. Ive spent the last two days doing nothing of any relative significance to anyone who isnt me, lauren, maddy, taina, or the old lady I ran into by accident. Who in turn yelled at me. Cranky old lady. Ima get chu. On the other hand, Ive been having lots of fun and today I feel like vomiting. But Im ok. Yesterday I was at tainas house with lauren and taina (of course). We went and bought food (I bought a lime popsicle wich tasted like condencsed juice...yummm) then we went to this park near her house and watched lauen on the swings from afar with a panting guy in a tube. Befor e left, we layed on our backs in a circle. It was kind of funny so we held hands and shouted out MOON POWER  TO THE RESCUE  (for no aparent reason) then ran back home to play simmmms. It got boring then lauren trie to save our sims. They went crazy. It was funny. I (L) SOCIAL BUNNY !!!!. then we ate chocolate. then we went home and I prentended I was a crack addict on the bus. I got into it. Scared a lot of people to the front of the bus. Im proud of myself. Then I developed an obsesion with the old game "roller coaster tycoon" (salivates). I did this this morning, so y'all know. .. it took... forever...but I LOVE it. Im doing an erin one next as a going away nerd present :)

Let me know what yall think :):)

Hey World!
Im so happy. Its finally summer. GRADE NINE IS OVER. Now I chill. Then grade ten. TIS MY MISSION: to find a GOD DAMN boyfriend. I mean, for fucks sake, this is pathetic >:(. I definately heart paul. He is so...sexy...lol. another page out of erins book. I was going to be obsesed with janis joplin...but...shes....so...ugly. I respect her...but shes...ugly.
Lol. So....heres the beatles. <3

Well I should be studying for exams. But Im not of course. Im 3/4 done science (that is I haved studied astronomy yet :(), almost done english (as in I have no idea what I should be studying) and pretty much ok with math. (Math is easy. Math is good. Ill review the night of.)
I have a 70 in science! hooray! And I just got an 89 on my drama exam (as well as a 7...fucking..4. Thank you, rollo, you giant FUCK). so Im cool, im good.
GOT CLOTHES!Ill show u the shirts...2/3 shirts

Hey there.
I studied for EQAO all day today. It was lots of fun. Lots and lots of fun. Now Im taking a brea from all the "Fun" and no one is online. Ill try to play sims. Pretend people. Its like...designed for skitzos like me. I like it. I like it a lot.

im really really really interested in knowing if anyone is interested in me t school. Its good that Iv e pin pointed my problem now thanks to the bestest gurl in the world, BAGNULO! I tihkn everyone should have A live journal. Its fun to see into ppls minds (dUnNuH!)

Hey World!

Its allysa. Im hiding in my basement, scared to go up to the hot hot un-airconditioned second or third floor, the outside is RIGHT OUT.  Friday was really fun. Math was cool. I spent the whole time talking to my friends, then we (that is me and taina) went swimming at mooneys bay. My  my, what fun.
SO GUESS WHAT!
Lauren's coming back in like...less than 24 hours! AH! Im so excited. SWIM! twill be oh so fun.

And scotts moving to china and erin to paris. So to remember them, a comemorative couple of insiders.
scott, remember the good old days.

I actually dont need to explain this un. this one looks more like the painting. Long live mr page. Mr. Page.

 

hello all avid readers.

Justa righting. im gosh darn bored. Studied all night ince again. Almost done bio and moving on.
haley got mad at me today. Thats sort of bull shit but ts about time. I mean, we spend way to much time together. Its because of erin. Erins also my bff. Erin and haley they dont get along. Erin loves haley too. Anyways, So erin and haley dont get along and then haley got mad at me and tried to make me choose I guess. And I picked erin. Erin and Taina. i wish haley liked them so we could all get along happily because soon itll just be taina. Theres only two weeks of school left and haley isnt coming back. Mabey thats why Im mad at her. Sub conciously. Either way, this cant last long. Hopefully. Erins off to paris too. That sucks. The year I made friends I entended to keep, THEIR the ones who move away. how role switching.

God Im bored...and slightly distraught. Im sorta just killing time and being distraught. It hurts the back of my head to even remember how gay this school is (in the homosexual sence, not as an insult. gay isnt an insult. Rock on my homosexual friends (K)!)
I do feel bored. Im jus kiddin I love canterbury. Mabey Ill bag some random guy this summer and get on with my life. Ted got sacked at hurdman. Twas awkward. pooor ted.
Anyways. Got a studdy it up tonight so I do good on exams.
BLECH. sort of dreading summer. Which is odd, because usually I anticipate it. Probably because haley seems to be hateing me lately. Oh well. what is it....6 days till lauren? close enough.

Hey. I should be doing some work of some sort...but I'm not. Just sort of farted around for a bit. Now Im watching T.V.Now Im going on lava life... swill be fun.

Hi Everyone and anyone
Im wrighting again. im back with lots of thoughts. Of course thers one thats rather depressing of course is my social life. Stupid life. Its depressing that Im always the plain one. Even though Im weird. I am beginning to be a bit of a loner, and I am seriously disliking the idea of not having a boyfriend throughout high school. Thats just stupid. Mabey Ill be hot next year. Maaaaybe. On the other hand, its not like I really try. I could probably get someone with a little help from my friends (lol, i get high with a little help from my friends.)
watching saved. Its depressing. Verrry depressing.

Hi!
Drama was pretty phat. I didnt feel like practicing any more. So I spent the class "bonding" with rollo and vickie about hannibal and our joint love for horror movies. I guess we all like getting the shit scared out of us. Rollos pretty cool. Unfourtunately, theoret was watching so we had to pretend to work. For a while we were just randomly saying lines but eventually we just improved the whole thing. It was pretty fun. We were discussing the cheepest way to commit suicide. (looks at wrists) looks pretty special.
So other than that, I didnt really like math. I actually didnt like david. Which is kind of bad. I mean, not even friendly. I wasnt like pissed I just didnt even want to talk to him. He's been ignoring me lately nyways.I just dont know why I'm mad at him.
I went to byward market with taina (another bonding activity). We picked out a dress 2gether and she baught it but we didnt even get to go to redeau. She didnt like any of the same shirts as me, but I dont mind the dress. It was pretty.
Went for a walk around the neighboor hood with the doggin and there were 2 cop cas. Yay for that! I just kept walking. Stupid druggies. I mean, alchohol makes sence but why would anyone go out and smoke pot, i mean does lung cancer mean nothing to you kids! (shakes fist grannishly)
Cant wait till camp! Im officially payed off! assuming I pass. I wish I could see my marks. Goddamit.

I wrote my characters eulogy. It was so sad because she seemed so normal but she was so understood. She loved her boyfriend so much and then she just died... and shes only 15. Im almost 15.

I just found out another two friends are cutting. Ok, so a lot of people cut. Its not that big of a deal. when you actually cut yourself its not something you share, and even then people find out...because they can see your wrists. I just dont think depression's something to toy with. I mean its not something to pretend you haev if you dont. Be hapy, apreciate your life and realize its just teen angst. No bodys actually thinking about you, so dont obsess over it.